two poses to choose from...the thinker...or the STINKER!

hey again....this week has been so long even though its only wednesday! jeez! lots of thinking and decisions and junk like that...i moved to provo and right now am basically living in angelas apartment and out of my car...one good thing, i have been running since this week has been BEAUTIFUL! i went on this one great run up to the trailhead of the Y- there were lots of good hills, it kicked my butt, and felt good. And me and becky did Pilates yesterday! that hurt my butt. But hey, i maybe can get back into shape! Also, i bought the DEC issue of Runners World (my favorite mag) and it inspires me to run. Two races i want to do this year: (besides the SLC marathon)
- THe Muddy Buddy run (run and bike obstacle course in the mud- colorado)
- Rock N ROll Marathon in June in San Diego...it sounds SO fun- bands at every mile! AH!

Anyways, i have like NO money to my name right now- only about $18 in my checking account and i am bummed becuase its warming up and i am afraid the snow in the mountains is melting... thats no good- i was hoping to get some good boarding in before thanksgiving...but at least its good for running. SO what i was saying- it sucks having no money and no rela place to call home, this has been going on now for about a month and a half, since i moved to california and back. and i just think maybe i should just head home. I mean, there it is cheaper (albeit boring) to live there, and i would feel like i had a home, you know? i could relax a little, which is somthing i have been struggling to do...but the problem is that i ave bounced around so much that i have not found a job yet! so i have no money, and my dad isnt happy with that....neither am i...anyways so thats what i have been stewing over this week. to go home or not to go home...THAT is the question....If i do go home ( good thing the mexico trip was cancelled or I would be even MORE bummed) is to go home for thanksgiving and jsut stay until new years when i would leave and go to new zealand with *sniffle* only sven and I. Angela decided not to go to the Kiwi land, but thats okay, she will have fun...of course we are bummed, but missions are probably more rewarding and a better thing than a trip to new zealand. So good luck to anglea if she is reading this!! anyway so i plan on playing AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE this last two weeks while i am in the mountains...which means i need to find money to board and hopefully we will go to city of rocks this weekend with jo, sven, and kori (maybe?) and angela and I. that will be cool. anyway this is getting really long and journal-like so i better get going. i have a lot of stupid errands to run anyways...lata playaz.......